From the very moment I've seen him, I knew that he will leave a big mark in my life. I don't know exactly how, but it happens. It happens in that one sunny afternoon, in one little room.
Jun, he said was his name. The name that will be embark in me forever. He invited me to dance with him, and so I accepted his invitation. I don't know what to feel while I'm in the middle of the room with the most gorgeous and beautiful guy, holding his hands, smelling his sweet scent, feeling his heart beat, and trapped in his mesmerizing stare. It was like he's hypnotizing me. And as the melody of the soft music goes on and on, he suddenly started teaching me how to love, and what love really is.
I don't know if I was falling in love or I was just being insane. But whatever it was, I'm happy to meet someone like him.
I told my friends about him, and they said I should stop this non-sense thing. They said Jun was not the type of guy for me and the fact that he has a girlfriend. So, I told them "Okay, don't worry it's just a crush. Nothing more." And so the next days of my life became perfect. Whenever I see him, my day will be complete.
The day came when I feel like I'm tired of being just a somebody for him. Somebody who justs stare from a far. He's just near but I feel like his million miles away. Maybe because we're not really meant to be together. And so I decided to just move away from him. I told myself thatI don't like him anymore.
Someone asks me, "Why don't you tell him what you feel?" As if that was so easy, like 1 + 1 = 2. I can't frankly tell what I really feel towards him. First, I was a girl. It's not good to be the first one to tell someone how you feel. You'll look flirt to others. Second, I'm a type of person who doesn't want to let anyone know what I really feel. I just keep it to myself, and sometimes to my closest friends. People have different styles, and I guess that's my style. And third, he doesn't like me. I don't know what will be his reaction if I'll tell him, so better not tell him. I'm afraid on how he'll react.
Days passed by so fast. So fast that I didn't realize that he's gone. One morning when I woke up, he was gone. There'll be no more Jun in my life. My life seems to be incomplete without him. Everyday I'm hoping to see him again. I know that my love story isn't that long, and isn't a nice one. Who knows, maybe this isn't the end of my story. Maybe someday, maybe tomorrow, the next day, next month, next year, our roads will cross again, seeing each other once more, dancing with him a second time around. I don't care when it'll be. It really doesn't matter. I'll just let everything goes on. And as our roads meet again, I hope...
just hope...
at that time, I'm the one he'll love for the rest of his life.
.ydal. ^_^
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